I find myself deep within a realm of change.
And exploring my spiritual self.
Growing up I was raised Baptist.
I was taught all I needed to know about the world.
So I thought.
I was always lost and conflicted.
As a kid I would lose myself in nature in a sense that contradicted what I was taught as a Baptist.
I felt attached to it in a magickal sense.
I felt like my thoughts could connect with the wind, like I could almost control it.
That was not okay with the teachings of Christianity.
I buried those thoughts and feelings.
I lost a part of me.
Fast forward to a couple of years ago.
Leena's birth awakened parts of me I had long lost.
Slowly it started with the way I looked at childbirth.
Then it went on to the change I made in my eating habits.
I changed my lifestyle.
It snowballed and turned into this Spiritual Awakening.
My body was cleaned so my mind is clearing.
This year is the year to explore all these thoughts I've slowly been letting loose.
Penelope's birth has once again shook my core and I'm building up my new foundation.
Honoring my true self.
When people ask me what it is I believe in I give a short answer.
I believe in God.
I usually do not find myself divulging much farther than that.
God, as the Christians honor, I'm not so sure.
The earth is God.
God is not some supreme being giving us minds to rationalize and then telling us not to use that ability.
I've been so afraid to let it be known that I do not follow the God I was taught to follow as a child.
I've been worried that people will judge me as I've judged others in the past for the beliefs I now hold as truths.
I am no longer afraid.
I do not need saving.
So, what am I?
I am not a religion.
I am me.
Peace and Love.
I, in no way, find you or anyone else of the Christian following any less than I.
We all have our own paths and own personal truths.