Sunday, June 19, 2011

Who am I?

For the longest time in my life I didn't know the answer to this question.
I know now, more than ever, who I am, what I represent and what crap I am willing to put up with.
This has been on my heart a lot lately and I just need to get it out.

I am not a Christian.
This may come as a surprise to hear me say this for a lot of people who I have known a long time.
I do believe in God.
But I do not believe in Christian principles.
Does this make me lost?
Absolutely not.

I know less than a handful of non-corrupt pastors and I am so thankful they are in my life.
One of the best pastors I have ever known, I was lucky enough to have him marry Joey and I.
He was non judgmental in every way about the life Joey and I chose to lead for ourselves.

I grew up in a Baptist church and thought that was the only way to lead a good, righteous life.
I do not believe in going to church now and I my relationship with God has multiplied greatly since that revelation in myself.
I research the bible for myself and interpret it in a way that makes sense to my SOUL.

Never could I feel right about hating someone for who they chose to love.
Never could I try to tell someone the choices they were making in regards to loving a person of the same sex was wrong and they were a lost soul.
Never could I do it because I never believed this to be true.
Now before anyone may try to hand me verses from the bible trying to disprove my own beliefs, just don't.
This is not a debate I have anymore.
I do not try to fight with someone that obviously has such differing views about this.
It won't change your views.
You won't change mine.
If change is going to happen it's going to come from searching your soul and seeing if you are truly happy in the way you are living.

I believe in the power of crystals.
I believe in chakras.
I believe in eastern medicine.
I believe in the power of love.
And, I believe in God.

I believe he has given us all these things.
The world is more complex than we'd like to think.
We are directly connected to nature and the moon.

So, I believe God is all around us.
And I believe I do not need to worship in a temple in order to be close to him.
Never have I felt more close to him than when I am outside appreciating nature.
Feeling the breeze.

And lastly, I believe all this makes me a GREAT mother.

Peace and Love.


Amanda ~ Blue LaReve said...

I think this was absolutely beautiful, and I so hope you've found peace with the release. Because so many people are so judgmental, putting my own faith out there is something I struggle with all the time. With 6 billion people in the world, it is utterly impossible for all of us to follow the same spiritual path. It's more important for us to respect each other and the choices they make. And you're right, this makes you a great mother!!

Monica {bohemian twilight} said...

Hi there, thought I would pop over from Amanda's place.

That must feel good to have that out. clear, strong.

Lil Muse Lily said...

I agree with you, I don't believe in going to church or any house of God to go and have faith or pray. And I don't believe that any religion makes anyone a better or worst mother.